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Meditation From HeavenDon’t tell me, friend, your heart is sinking
In all the bitter tears you cry,
Don’t say the wound that’s strongly burning
Will never heal until you die.
You can’t forget the only instant
Which seemed the happiest in your life,
Which passed so quickly in a distance
As in the twinkling of an eye.
It’s not the first and not the last
Misfortune happened in your life.
And all of you get used to them
When they emerge like pointed knife
And strike a painful blow.
You have to overcome yourself,
To face the music firm and bold,
You have to spare no effort to survive
In this unfair world.
MagicianThe day will come when great disaster
Will shake the body of the Earth.
I went that day to one spellcaster
To ask for help, for world’s rebirth.
The wizard uttered therefore:
“I don’t want to stop events
That were predicted long before
And change the history of Planet.
“But I can teach the one who wants,
Who strongly wishes world’s salvation;
I’ll give him all the skills I know
Just to avoid this world’s annihilation.
So now I can fly to stars,
Can make the Earth stop moving round,
Switch off the sun and burn the Mars
And, certainly, not to be fallen on the ground.
I chose the path that leads to fame,
That shows the rest your greatest power.
But at the same time it can blame
And overthrow your soul to tower
Which you won’t be allowed to leave.
ChallengeThere once was light...
Now darkness falls...
Where once was light
When life went wrong?
I understand
You have the right
To come too late
But will I bear
The fight with Fate?
I've gone to hell
But I will find
The way to run
With hope behind... And to escape...
You won't destroy
My way of life
And I will stand...
And I will fight...
Twilight CaveForgotten realms are all in chaos,
Forgotten caves are full of bats.
But there’s one cave where lots of dwellers
Had caused incredible events.
Much harmless blood was spilled in dark
And death became the daily guest.
The God had put a mortal mark
Onto this cave. He must have guessed
He wouldn’t stop the wheel of time.
He wasn’t able to forbid
Unholy crimes and evil deads
That could exterminate the life.
The Moon has never lit that city,
The stars have never shown the way,
The Sun has never sent its rays
To shine the paths of Twilight Cave.
PhoenixTo burn myself, forget myself and die
That’s what I’m longing for.
To spread the wings, to raise the head and cry
And I need nothing more.
To die at once the darkest night,
Not to exist and not to disappear,
Not to take part in useless fight
And not to overflow myself with fear.
And then, one day, to resurrect from ashes,
To raise the head and spread the wings in air,
To burn the previous life as trashes
And never recollect it...don’t dare...
Falling In LoveWhen I sleep in my room,
Dreaming about her wonderful eyes,
It reminds me the bloom
Of the flowers that grow in my paradise.
They were planted into ground
Some eternities ago,
And they make themselves surround
And encourage us to go...
I should make up my mind,
Just make an effort to decide
Whether I want to search and find
The real love in wild life’s tide.
With all her grace she passed by me,
As if by chance she made a sigh
Then she glanced back to look at me
And I have seen no slightest lie...
Her eyes have told me much to learn,
I gave a promise to confess
That my exalted love has born
From flowers’ flavour more or less...
Thus she pretends with all her charm
To be indifferent and stern...
But when my shoulder feels her arm
The sun sends rays to notify the dawn...
DreamCatcherThe dreams you saw in darkness,
They haunt you every night
And every night seems starless,
The clouds eat the light...
The universe for evil,
The shadows of the past,
The fears of medieval,
They wish to slake the lust.
To catch your dreams much harder
Than follow wills of mind.
But doing that in ardour
I know I will find...
You can’t admit that fear
Dissolving in your blood
Can strike, can hit, can sear,
Can do away with heart.
The dreams you’ll see in darkness,
The precious of today,
Catch sight of evanescence...
Just live...And come what may...
I might be Devil, might be God...Have you avoided my decoys?
Haven’t you lost the keys of truth?
I’ve taken pains to kill the ruth
In unprotected human hearts.
I could succeed and could decline
The human soul’s the deepest parts
Were hard to win – like playing darts,
To aim at “ten”, to hit the “nine”...
My spirit’s moving on the prowl,
It’s going down to the core,
And you can hardly hear the growl,
It’s going back to try once more...
You can’t resist my boundless power...
So I could buy your worthless soul,
The day would come, the sun would lour,
And you will hear that fateful toll...
Your way is full of my decoys,
Don’t hasten calling me the lord,
I am your judge, you are my toys,
I might be Devil, might be God...
You KnowYou know I love you.
Some pain in my heart
Can once break the border
And tear us apart.
Your feelings concealed
And I can’t see the sign.
The riddle you set
Will you help to divine?
Dying WarriorThe pain inside, the pain within,
It makes you dream about death
Which seems seductive to take in,
Her soothing somnolence of breath...
I see you suffering and dying,
Foresee the last time when you sigh.
Black raven’s flying round and crying,
He’s waiting for your last good-bye.
The woman with the scythe is near,
It makes the flesh convulse and creep.
You’ve got to fight and face your fear
Or fall into eternal sleep.
The woman’s hands are stone-cold
And her touch is killing smart.
So far the warrior was bold,
Then the pain broke down the heart...
You have come across the end.
May you rest in peace, my friend.
Dying, hold the hilt of sword.
Dying in the name of God.
ВидениеОднажды ночью, как во сне
Видение явилось мне:
“Закрой глаза, усни навек.
Ты не бессмертный, человек.
Не бойся света, сделай шаг,
Почувствуй то, что видеть не дано.
Закрой глаза, спустись во мрак,
Чтоб в сердце распахнуть окно.
К нему дорогу ты найдешь,
Блуждая в сумраке среди деревьев тьмы,
Что впитывают влагу проклятой земли
И существуют так, как существуем мы.
Возможно, встретятся тебе
Страданий горы, теряющие пики в вышине.
Возможно, будешь ты молить
О смерти. Она придет, но только лишь во сне.
Мечтать ты будешь в темноте
О выходе оттуда, куда пошел по доброй воле
И проклинать ту часть себя,
Что не выходит никогда из своей роли.
Тогда увидишь ты рассвет,
Увидишь солнце в небесах далеких,
И первый раз за столько лет
Ты улыбнешься для себя, для многих.
Глаза открой и зеркало разбей,
Что отражает мрак твоей души.
В пыль преврати, по воздуху развей.
Однажды начатое дело заверши…”
Крадется, слышу я во сне,
Подкралось вот уже ко мне:
“Не забывай – живи свой век.
Ты не бессмертный, человек”.
ReverieПо темным улицам бреду,
Шагаю тихо за тобой
И повторяю, как в бреду,
Слова, что кажутся мечтой.
You are alone no more,
Unfold the truth and look inside.
A part of me belongs to you
Forever staying by your side.
No more the fear of unknown,
The deepest feel corrupts the weak;
At last you can take off the stone
Which forced your heart to make a leak.
So bend you knees, embrace your dream,
This moment you’ve been waiting for;
The well of love was made supreme,
One draught will lead you to the core.
По темным улицам бреду,
Шагаю за своей мечтой
И повторяю, как в бреду,
Слова, что сказаны тобой…
Holy RepentanceEnslave my mind, take my blood
And fill the cup of endless torment.
I couldn’t nip it in the bud
And cannot do it at the moment.
I’m looking for the sacred hell
That tempts and promises salvation
But someone whispers that I fell
Into abyss of inspiration.
Please banish all the sense away,
Then bind my hands and make me kneel,
Confess that I had gone astray,
Repent of all the things I feel.
The only way is sacrifice,
I crucified my incarnation;
It wasn’t me who set the price,
I only made the predication.